Synergy with Papa God ~

“His purpose was for the nations to seek after God and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him – though He is not far from any one of us.” ~ Acts 17:27 NLT

As I read this verse, one word came to mind: “Synergy.” Encarta’s definition is “the working together of two or more people, especially when the result is greater than the sum of their individual effects or capabilities.”

I was thinking about the season that I’m in right now. They call it premenopausal. I call it paranormal! The swing of emotions that can sometimes be so crazy and wickity wack…makes me dizzy just thinking about it! There are mornings when I arise that my heart feels light yet strong, ready to take on the day. My prayers are bold, crisp and clear. I can sense the Holy Spirit flowing through my body in a strange, electrifying way. I’m dressed with the Holy Spirit inside and out. The synergy of the oneness with Papa God gives me such confidence…such hope!

And then there are times–sometimes mere hours later–that a wave of “other” emotions comes over me. Like a tidal wave of negative energy, it contaminates my oneness with Papa’s Spirit. I find myself flailing in the midst of the surge…desperately wanting to escape its grip. But the cloud of heaviness hovers over me, so ominously, and threateningly. I get on my knees and begin to pray, but even my prayers seem aloof. I hear the words come out of my mouth, but something just doesn’t seem to connect. “Is anyone in there? Can you hear me Papa God? Help me, please. I need you to hold me…just hold me!” These are the cries I utter in the depths of the “low” that I find myself in.

Sounds insane, doesn’t it? How can I go from one extreme to the other in such a short span of time! I can’t explain it, but it’s as real to me as the keys on this laptop. Tap, tap, and tap. Can anyone relate, or am I flying solo here? Is this just a female thing, or do men experience the highs and lows too, perhaps not as intensely as women, because God in his omniscient wisdom (or sense of humor…I still can’t figure out which) “wired” you differently. Nevertheless, do you? UGH, YUCK, SIGH…those words don’t even begin to express the roller coaster ride.

Nevertheless, I am grateful for this time! “What! Are you crazy,” you say? Yes…I’m so very grateful! I’m so blessed to have a Papa God who allows me the freedom to FEEL things…to express things…to have desires in my heart that only He knows. And only He can bring my desires to fruition! He knows me through and through, and He calls me by name! He knows when I need to be held, He knows when I need to cry, He knows when I’m jumping for joy…all of it uncontainable!

And He is there…always there…ready to catch me when I fall, ready to lift me up when I need lifting, ready to dust me off and hold me close and continue on this journey with me. All the while He smiles at this kid (me). He calls His beloved! Imagine that…the GREAT I AM, loves me just as I am! I know this is going to sound a little weird, but I once told my husband that the joy I sometimes experience is what I imagine it might feel like to be in the middle of a sweet jelly donut! Ok…maybe not something you want to imagine, but for me it was all I could come up with at that moment to express my feeling of elation.

Allow me to paraphrase the verse above – “He wired me this way for HIS purpose…to feel my way toward HIM…because HE is never, ever, far away.” So my contentment is in the synergy that arises from the angst, and in the joy He placed inside me. It’s our homing mechanism…our longing to be with Papa God, not just “now,” but for eternity.

“Papa God, thank You! Thank You for gifting us with feelings, for gifting us with Your Holy Spirit that lives inside us who have believed and received You! Thank You for never leaving our side, even when we can’t make sense of things! Thank You for placing the angst inside us that can only be satisfied in YOU! Even when things don’t make sense, even when we feel all alone and desperate for answers…to know that You have NEVER left us alone is such a comfort…such a gift!

I pray for my family and friends today. If anyone is struggling through a circumstance, help them to their knees Papa…help them to surrender…to cast all their cares upon You! Help them to recognize the sacredness of this moment in time…to realize that there is good stuff in the hard stuff, and allow You to work all things for our good, according to Your perfect timing and for Your perfect purpose. In JESUS name I pray!”

Be blessed…IN HIS STRONG LOVE ~ rose

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Ash
    Nov 19, 2012 @ 10:14:47

    Wow! Wow! Wow! Just what I needed to read this morning- it’s a nice reminder that god is there in the highs and lows of our emotions! You know me and my bi-polar emotions these days 😉


    • Rod & Rose
      Nov 19, 2012 @ 10:35:05

      Right? I guess it’s not just the premenopausal ladies that go through the highs & lows! Praise God fo His grace extended that carries us through! ~ Amen!~


  2. fullherlife
    Nov 23, 2012 @ 17:47:42

    This is so great Rose! I thoroughly enJOYed your intimate sharing of emotions… and chuckled at the jelly doughnut section of it. 😉 I LOVE taking in all that God has to offer us! It’s so exciting that all of what you’re describing sounds to me like, “Taste and see that the Lord is good, oh’ the joys of those who trust in Him”. As I’m learning to trust Papa, I see that I truly can count it all joy… every emotion can lead me to a greater awareness of He and I, walking together. ~ Thank you beautiful woman, Amy Alves from fullherlife.


  3. Rod & Rose
    Jan 01, 2013 @ 12:29:59

    Hi Amy,
    I just realized I never replied! Life gets so busy at times that I tend to get side tracked. Someday Rod and I will have the pleasure of meeting you and your husband! Whether here or in heaven! Thankks for your encouragement.
    IN HIM


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